IBF, HIlife, Da Kine, and all that good shit

i wish you were as real as i imagine you are. sigh.

I'm in my room, it's a typical Thursday night.
listenin to Norah Jones, Lauryn Hill, Erykah Badu.
the soulful girls know how its done.

i wish i could sing. i would sing every thought i never say.
but, alas, that was not my destiny.
but what is? we shall see.

oooh. Nude by Radiohead just came on.
sexy song, really sexy song.
I need to get laid.
I am rambling. fuck it.
I'm in a bizarre mood right now.



(sound it out)

Part of me really loves this time of year, and part of me really doesn't.
It's transformative, introspective, exciting (to a degree), stressful, promising, telling, and holds the possibilities of a brighter future.
butttt, it's hard to stay focused, motivated and inspired.
I often just want to curl up and stay in bed, or just smoke a fat blunt and fade away.

but only time can tell what the future holds, so bring it on. lets make shit happen.
i have the power, control and desire to see a better tomorrow, and i think thats all i need.



just some precious/inspirational/underwater/hilarious/distorted/meaningful images to share with you...

this man can spit it

When I was young you couldn't tear me away from the stereo
And used to carry one with me everywhere I go
As I memorized the words I genuinely believed every line I heard
I thought that these men that I referred to
Was prophets of our time would never lie in verse
I can't begin to tell you how it hurt
As time went on some of them disguises burst
I always said if ever I get heard, if ever I am perched in an elevated place
High enough so this world can recognize my words
I would never turn and try to hide my face
And so I give it all as an author
Even if myself is all I have to offer
I don't exaggerate it, I would gladly be hated for what I am
And just stand and state it
And if you relate then you can take it
All human beings are the same when we're naked
We all living through the same insane trip
But we ain't it in alone if somebody stand up and say...



Thank you Brother Ali for constantly opening my mind
now could you please fly your albino self out to Oahu?

how it feels right now

I want to share my world with someone else (or you...)

my world is simply beautiful and it's not fair for it to be mine alone

what I'm saying is I think I might be ready to open myself up to it.

that thing.
that unknown thing.

So I stayed home...got a fuckin problem with it?

I'm back in the HI this year after an unsuccessful year at UCSC.
I feel like I can feel the judgment. fuck it.

I'm happier than I've been in years.


Hawaii will always be my home, I can't get enough of this place at this time in my life.
I wake up to the phenomenal sunrise over the Mokolua's, the twin islands, every morning.

Why did I even leave when I never even understood all that I had here?

and dont worry, I want to see other places and live other lives after this... but for now I want to live the HI life.






How could I ever be unhappy?

you'll like this one

http://wineandbowties.com/?p=5811

Kid Cudi (my crush of the moment), MGMT, and the perfect dash of Ratatat's twang.

fuckkk

i start school today

it's 1:11 am.

and i've just spent some time going through the random shit in my room.
i found some heart warming notes,
things that just make you feel loved, notes from the past that take you back to an exact moment in time, an exact emotion.
side note:
its nice to be loved
even if you dont understand how it happens.

anyway
life is strange right now

i start school monday
and...

i feel as though im drifting, but im standing still


i dont recognize how i spend my time, and i dont remember much
this is not good.

im extremely sad my friends are leaving me, which forces me to (in classic simone fashion) crudely push them away...it's not fair, i hate that they love me (but i love them unconditionally)

ive been thinking about the human kind and how we are so fucking weird
just think about it.
next time you are in some crowded place look around and observe...we are really so bizarre.

anywayyyyy
i want, i want, i want
[shoes and bags are my current obsessions]

au revoir
xoxo

uplifting

hello world!
thanks for providing these tidbits so i can stop feeling sad about stupid things.

give me this feeling

everything.is.hapenin.so.fast